Yayy, finally got it! my first break cue... Fury Break Jump. Cost quite abit, and tt guy refused to give me any discount. -_- Got a 2 by 2 cue case also, for 8 bucks off. Better than nothing rite.. haha, will be off to pool 'training' every morning, since i got 2 hrs free every morning. = D

Some things are just so bothering. I dunno whether its meant to be... only God knows.

I'm just some guy, who means no harm. hahaha

back frm revival camp in church. Was great! the service, the supper, the company, the staying up and turnin high by laughin thru the night... blah blah... been a long time since i had something like this. But now, gotta repay the sleep debt, or i'm really gonna start walking into walls or something.

hmmz, feel like another war's starting to churn... yikes. hope it'll go off, cos i dunno how it just blowed up overnight. feel like i gotta tell someone, but its a risk... always a risk

^caleb out

9ball's THE game

Spent 5 1/2 hrs at the pool table today... was kinda frustrating, not being able to play like the pros ", Was really mentally drained after that, didnt know pool could be that tiring... was even perspiring after that.

Finally, think i've more or less decided on getting that break cue, supposed to be coming in this week, but they havent called yet. Fury Break/Jump... gonna eat up half of my miserable savings. Well, I fell in love with the game, so I'll just make the necessary investments, dun wanna overspend... Going to get enlisted soon too... I'm really excited about it, am looking forward to it too. = )

Money doesnt grow on trees u know... Yeah!

"Concrete Angel" - Martina McBride

Almost cried when I saw the MTV of this song. Really such a beautiful, sad song...

"Concrete Angel"
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Chorus:
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

Repeat Chorus

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Repeat Chorus

"Because You Live" - Jesse McCartney

I fell in love with the song the moment I heard it.

"Because You Live"
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answerS
omewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

I MISS school. I MISS studying

Just got back the long awaited A level results yesterday. The excitements of life eh.
Well, the truth is that I was... and perhaps am, disappointed with my results. But I'm thankful for it (is it ironical?) Was expecting more, esp. Biology... actually, everything. hahaha

After spending the last 3 months doing nothing much... just passing time, seeing the second hand go tick tock on the clock, with my butt perpetually glued to the sofa, feeling nauseatic after watching hours of TV, my money being unnecessarily spent on stupid gun machines, pacing up and down town looking for something new to see, shoving in the midst of crowds and cursing in my mind why can't people don't block the way and walk a little faster. Yeah, you get the idea. Except for my one month of working, and the time i spent at coffee bean sipping iced tea reading some form of literature, or writing songs. The rest of the time was... Fruitless. Arghh.. i'm such a time waster... I'm gonna be judged for it someday!!!

Was talking to SP yesterday on the bus, about the things you think and ponder about when you have TOO much time. Boy, it was scary... We had the same outcomes of having too much time, you start thinking too much, you start analysing nonsense, you get moodswings, you get on-off depressions... etc. I'm kinda scared of retirement now... Can't imagine when I'm 60 and still single, facing retirement.. Oh no, these 3 months really scare the hell out of me already. Hmm, perhaps its because most people are in army, dun really have much places to go to, and the people to go with. My close friends are either in army, or busy studying...

Think i'll appreciate university very much m0re when i go in, and if i can get into my first choice, I think i'll be so much more motivated to REALLY STUDY and put in my all.... cos now I'm kinda worried i'll not be able to get it, cos of fierce competition. Hmmm, I hope all those people with results that seem impossible to achieve will all go and fight it out in Medicine, and the losers of the battle get some scholarship in medicine in some other country, and leave my course alone. Haha... Once you secure that precious seat in university, away with the A level cert. Tear up the grades, no one cares about it anymore!! Its the new road, to Bachelors, Masters, Doctorates... high hopes eh.

And then again, what if my interest change along the way? Ahhh, cos now I only have 1 plan in mind, 1 interest in what to study in mind. I really hope i'll get in...